It's hard to let it go because you're attached to it but maybe you’re just comfortable with it because you’re scared to try something new. And maybe you keep it because it let you hide a few things you don’t like about yourself. So you hang on it. You try to manipulate it into being what you want. Pulling, tugging, permanently altering things about yourself to make it fit. Plus your momma ‘nem always been hella invested in you maintaining it. Sometimes you wonder if it belongs to you[...]